Your presence has made my life so beautiful.
It was part of my Facebook status update after my birthday. And since then, I’ve really started thinking about it….
How amazing is it that we need others in order to live?
I know I could throw in this whole ‘No man is an island’ thing and just go on and on. But I literally would not be the person I am today without every single person around me. I’ve learned things from every person in my life, and at every turn, my friends and family and office-mates (who quickly become both friends & family!) have inspired me with their own stories and determination to create.
My heart is so full today. It feels heavy… not in a Things are bad kind of way, but in the way that beautiful sculpture is heavy. Here is a thing of weight, of quality. It feels present and beautifully permanent. It will make its way through time, while everything else is fading away – it will keep right on shining. I’ve carried your voices and encouragement and hopes and dreams all this time. You’ve made me feel grounded and completely free all at once.
We’ve all come through battlefields together – and some of us have actual physical scars from all we’ve seen and heard. We’ve made our way through celebrations and shattered glass, through tears and blood on the ground. We’ve made our way through staring out across a huge ocean and feeling so infinitesimal and utterly present all at once, through laughing so hard we’re crying, through getting thrown in the pool at 2 in the morning, through looking around and thinking – This is the moment I want to live in forever. Endless glasses of wine, bowls of soup, cake for breakfast, and more cups of coffee than I can count.
She taught me to be fearless because she was fearless. He taught me to not take myself so seriously, that I needed to laugh and zen out every once in a while. I watched her live life and discovered that maybe the thing I was so afraid of wasn’t really that scary at all. I read his novel and her script and knew that the bar had been set wildly high for my own writing. I want to be her when I grow up. I have so much to learn.
I am not a self-made woman, not by a long shot. I am becoming this beautiful, crazy, how-on-earth-does-this-work mix up of everyone who’s been so amazing to share their life and experiences with me. They’ve all somehow sharpened me and fought with me to become the person i was made to be… And I am so brilliantly grateful. I owe you all my entire life!
There are so many more adventures coming for us all.
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